I’m Steele Roddick and I want to share a story with you.

A story about why I am the way I am and why About Pages can be misleading.

I say misleading because if I had written this About Page two months ago, or two years ago, it would have been a very different page and told a very different story.

The truth is, for most of my life I’ve felt like an imposter. Like there were two versions of me. The person people saw on the surface and the person I was deep down. The person who I wanted to be and the person that I was.

People have always seen me as a confident and capable human being. My teachers would say I was immensely talented and full of potential. Others would claim I was funny, intelligent and charismatic.

But that’s only because they didn’t see what I saw, or know what I knew. That behind that charisma was insecurity. Behind that confidence, uncertainty. Where they saw potential success, I saw future failure.

Some part of me always wondered if I would ever be good enough. If I would ever live up to expectation. If I could be the person others saw. If who I was and who I wanted to be would ever meet.

 

This blog is about closing that gap.

It’s about sharing the story of how I’ve become more like the person I was always told I could be. About how I’ve started to believe that I am in fact good enough.

I’m excited to share this story because I don’t believe that I’m alone. I believe the fear of not being good enough is almost universal. And it can be absolutely paralyzing.

But I also know now that it can be overcome. That you can close the gap between who you are and who you would like to be. That with decent habits, a good diet, and the right mindset, you don’t ever have to fear not being good enough again.

 

I know that sounds bold, but I really think it’s true.

I used to think I was never going to be hardworking enough to get ahead. I used to tell myself that I didn’t have enough self-discipline to work out every week. I used to believe that I didn’t have enough willpower to not drink pop.

Now I wake up at 5 AM most days. I’m up at 6 AM on a Saturday morning writing this About Page. Now I happily go to the gym 6 times a week. I haven’t had a pop for over a year. I don’t even crave them anymore.

Now I feel better and look better than I have my entire life. And I used to think I would always be tired, that my stomach would always hurt, and I’d never be able to see my abs.

Now I eat mostly vegetables. And I used to hate them.

Now most days I get up and feel confident and capable. That used to just be something people told me once in awhile.

For the most part I’ve stopped wondering if I will ever be good enough and started actually working toward being better. The paralyzing fear is gone. I no longer feel like an imposter.

 

That’s what I am About these days.

If you were looking for the more typical, unchanging bits, here are some quick points:

 

  • I am a writer working in Toronto, Canada
  • I live with my awesome fiancée named Kaavya
  • I love playing chess, learning about everything, and arguing about anything
  • I believe that we have the power to change our stars and am passionate about writing how to do just that

 

That’s me right now. But like I said, I’m open to change. In fact, I actively seek it.

If anything changes in the next couple months I’ll let you know. And if it’s for the better, I’ll let you know how I did it.

If you want to hear more about closing the gap between who you are and who you want to be, send your email my way and I’ll fire back my best tips and latest thoughts about once or twice a week.

If you want to hear more about closing the gap between who you are and who you want to be, send your email my way and I’ll fire back my best tips and latest thoughts about once or twice a week.

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